Well since ive had a myspace i haven't not checked once a day since i got it. but ima go a week without it to see what happens. You know? i wonder if people even check this XD. everyone i know doesn't even know this exists, that i know of :O. so ill blog in this for a while.. um yea, i blog on myspace because of the high traffic. and plus as i said many people i know use it and there fore it makes more sense to all use one thing, right? So whats changed since i seriously updated in here prolly last year around september? So, here is why i actually made the myspace. because of it popularity i'd have a higher chance of finding some one, but nothing turned up. so really it just kinda filtered into me just writting stuff working on my photoshop skills for website design. im working a generator to allow users to drag dialog boxes and such to make a profile.. hmm not look like crap? Oh yea, what else. im not oh my goth any more. im less sympathetic.. my laptop needs windows.. so i used an old computer hooked up to a tv for a while. i leave my house now. im skatting more. uhh.. i have a slim line pc. i dont do much gamming anymore. im more religous, yea i know its a suprise to most people. also im going into the trades. i figure id rather go threw the trades before becomming and enginner because it makes more sense to me, you know? alot of new engineers plans are crap because they dont know realistically how things are done. and there for i wanted to learn the trade before jurisdicting it. ERm.. i used to on myspace up till the last day of school i blogged once or more times a day. yea i know it was ridiculous. know i do once week if that. because i can just write everything at once and people read and it seems more important. plus its a way to show people im alive. but since for this myspaceless week ill have nothing better to do ill just write mindless shit here. I graduated high school. I also failed to accomplish the one thing i wanted to do. But i did learn people talk shit about you right in front of you like you're not there and deaf. So i guess, it might not be so bad. because i dont deal with shit very well. yet they complain that i dont talk. and the reason became.. well the reason i really couldn't try any more was that i didn't and don't want to deal with people that only talk shit, thats it. I didn't talk because people they know talk shit about me, so really they prolly dont even know me.. you know? then again i dont know how much they talk. but what i do know is, the people i did talk before they talked to them dont really talk to me anymore, so how can i try, when i get shit in the end? but inreality im pretty much at a complete loss of feeling towards anything at this point. i know they read it, yet they dont say anything. atleast i was trying. and im a very shy person, but i made a effort that in the end unfortunately so far is not making a difference, and i dont even know whats happening anymore, but like my life as a gypsy no one is on your side ever. everyone is against you, just to certain degrees. im a gypsy it took me a while but i now know my rightful place, on the floor. my life, being born as a gypsy is meaningless at best. so thats my reintroduction.